Years ago I stumbled across a fitness program called Body for Life — it’s basically a combination of anaerobic weight lifting, HIICardio and eating smaller portions of protein/fat/carbs throughout the day. I’ve decided I’m ready to start shaping my body rather than just getting the fat off.
Losing so quickly, I am already starting to experience sagging skin. Mostly on my arms and my gut. My thighs don’t look terribly pretty right now either, but that’s more a shaping item than loose skin. And well, my butt is pretty flat. For some reason this upsets me more than the rest combined? I never realized my booty was my hot button! Ha!
Anyway – in thinking of what I wanted to do to reshape my body, I came to the conclusion that weights was the way to go. I need the muscle to continue burning fat anyway. But what do I do. I have some experience with weights, but I by no means am an expert and I’m not ready to hire a trainer quite yet. Especially not with the lower back injury I sustained last weekend. I think it’ll be about a good month before I can really push with the assist from a trainer.
So, I looked up the book on Amazon (thank goodness for this site. On the other hand, whatever thought I have it’s usually available for purchase — with the benefit of Prime — that’s not always great for the pocket book!), and voila! There it was. Both the book and the exercise journal. I brushed up on the program and today was day #1. Upper body so I was able to really protect my back. It was mostly arms and shoulders. It kind of forced me to isolate the proper muscles so I didn’t strain and further injure the muscles around my tail bone. And boy did it kick my butt. In free-weights I never crested 20 #s, which shows the shape I’m in upper body-wise. But that was enough to feel the “burn” for sure.
I also found the best sports medicine clinic here in Baxter — it’s chiropractic, massage, and Pilates all in one place. I met with Traci last night and she gave me the longest, best sports massage I think I’ve ever had — and that’s saying something coming from a spa girl like me. She really worked the muscles near my tailbone. Not in a painful way, just in a elongating gentle way. I felt so much looser when I left. I can’t wait to go back in 2 weeks.
I managed to lose another 2 pounds last week. I’ve been hovering in the 220’s for a few weeks, which is frustrating, but I knew the rapid weight loss would eventually come to an end and the more intense work would begin. I guess I have truly arrived at this point. My goal was -15 by February 1st. I have 13 to go. Totally manageable.
I still fight the food demons, though. The desire to munch late-night. The desire to eat crappy foods. The compulsion to eat fast and not chew. All of those things are remnants from my former eating life and I fight them every single day. I have to learn to be comfortable with a little hunger between meals. I have to learn to eat more scheduled and plan ahead. And that every meal is not literally my last meal. Sheesh.
The one thing I am proud of is that I’ve incorporated more vegetables back into my diet. All sorts of vegi’s. And a bit of carb. Whole grains — I had oatmeal for breakfast the other day. That was a treat. But boy, when I’m full I’m full. Not another bite. And that’s a good thing – thought I probably shouldn’t get to that point on a regular basis. I should stop eating before that sensation.
I’m also back to measuring my foods as I prepare them. It’s so easy to over estimate, and sometimes even underestimate a portion size. What I thought was 1/2 a cup of cottage cheese was actually only a 1/4 and it’s a wonder I was hungry so quickly after. An hour later I was wanting more. So, this morning I measured my snack to a 1/2 cup. And let me tell you, it’s not easy to eat it all, but I know with the increased energy spend of working out I need the calories. My body still works the same in that regard. If I eat less and burn more, my body doesn’t seem to release the fat as quickly. However, if I give it the nutrition and calories it needs it releases the weight much more smoothly.
I do like that I can now buy “cute” fitness clothes. I am wearing a Victoria Secret sport legging with a Fabletics Cami and a Juno Active black with white piping exercise top. I finally had to break down and buy some clothes in my size. The size 3x tops were just swimming on me and I looked “dumpy” in the mirror at the gym and it was starting to mess with my head. It’s better for me to see my actual size as I go. It helps my brain embrace my new body which helps me to make better choices throughout the day.
It’s truly not all about how I look. I feel so much better as well. But some days I just have to enjoy and embrace the physical part of the experience and not feel ashamed to be excited about it as well. It’s all part of the journey.