The final straw…

So, there could have been a lot of things that spurred a change in my behaviors. My father had serious heart problems, a massive heart attack at 54 (quadruple bypass and a valve replacement) and passed away at 63. That could do it. But it doesn't. My brother recently suffered a mild heart-attack at 57. He lives near me. I see the changes he's making. Maybe it should be that. All these wake up calls. But it wasn't. It was something much simpler, much more vane. A tennis bracelet. My wrist is so thick, I cannot wear my tennis bracelet. I can't wear any bracelets.

Grateful…

Tuesday night I co-lead a bible study with my friend Tammy.  I use co-lead loosely because really, the women in our group are equal leaders as they are participants.  These women all have such a heart for God.  They are all in different parts of their spiritual journey, but all open their hearts to each …

Humbled…

I survived speaking yesterday.  It was raw and emotional for me, but the group was warm and receptive.  I felt like I was sharing my story amongst a roomful of friends, because I was.  Over the weekend, through our experiences and shared stories, we bonded and came together as one body. When we started planning …

Vision Night…

Let's put this out there first -- I'm over my first, of I'm sure many, pity parties from the other night -- I'm so glad I had that pause though...it let's me know I'm right on schedule moving through the phases of grieving over this cancer thing. Last night Frank and I had the pleasure …

In a mood…

I'm in a mood tonight.  Tonight I have decided I really don't like cancer.  Right, like I like it any other time.  But tonight I'm having a moment.  I'm not looking to be cheered up, coddled, consoled.  I just needed to voice it, here, on "paper", where I come to sort all things.  Having cancer …

Holiday Spirit…

Kenzie and I are so excited to finally be into October.  This month is the gateway to our favorite holidays!  First Halloween.  When we went to move and we were pairing down, Frank paired down our Halloween decor.  Not that we had a lot, and not that what we had was "good".  Some of it …

Halloween…

Halloween will have an entirely new meaning for me this year.  That is the date I have scheduled for my surgery. I had the opportunity to meet with my surgeon yesterday.  Her name is Meghan Forster and she.is.awesome.  Friendly, thorough, informative, patient, and I felt like I was partnering with her from the start. As …

Grace…

The further I go in my journey with God, the more I come to realize how massive His grace is and how massive a concept it is.  In the last few weeks it's a topic that has popped up with me in the "teacher's seat" several times.  I haven't figured out yet if it's God …