Yesterday marked my last pre-operative appointment. I met with my doctor’s PA and went over the procedure, any questions I had, expectation v. reality, and all the things I need to do/know/accept to prepare for surgery on the 31st.
It’s so surreal. Four months ago it felt like this day would never come. I had so many things to do in front of me. Hoops to jump through. Targets to hit. And here I am. Literally days away from going under the knife.
I have mixed emotions. I’m excited to see where I’ll be a year from now. What will I look like, what will I weigh, how much more active I will be. Life will be different in some ways. There are things I cannot do now that I probably won’t think twice about then. However, I am nervous about the change in my relationship with food.
All these things swirling in my head at once. But most of all, I feel thankful. Thankful for a husband and friends who are supportive of my journey. Thankful for a doctor who will literally pray with me before we go into surgery. Thankful for God, who loves me like I am and will help me through the coming days, weeks and months; who has granted me peace beyond even my requests for it these last few weeks.
I am excited to be on the other side…12 days to go.